And when you find it

I know you'll think that there's somethin' behind it

Roll your eyes and say, "She's probably dying"

You'll wait the night and act like you're not tryin'

But I'm not bitin'

Starting in the middle because life doesn't have a three act structure. It's chaotic and it's beautiful. It's afternoon when I wake up in the hotel to the chronic pain in my body successfully managed with truisms offering relief I forgot could be real.

You are allowed to not suffer
It's okay to do nothing
You can just lie here

I arrived in Miami with no chargers for any of my devices so I had no choice but to order pizza, do the ketamine found in my makeup bag, dance around naked, take selfies, play with my hair and random jewelry and

self-love, self-pleasure, self-satisfaction ♥